There's nothing like an excuse to start over. Whether it be a breakup, the beginning of a New Year or an L, I'll take every opportunity I can get to grow. Luckily for me, I have all three just waiting for me to rise from the ashes.
Ever since I was younger, I've enjoyed making an entrance; I'll strut my stuff like my sh*t don't stink, and what better time to do so than in the new year?
I've taken the time, since coming back home, to invest my time and energy into bettering myself. Physically and mentally, I want to be able to go back to Cape Town to start my degree knowing I'm not the same person I was a month ago.
Here is what I'm doing to align my chakras, in hopes that we can do this together and face 2018 bigger and better people:
I used to read about two books a month when I was in middle school, but slowly lost the desire after "mandatory reading" reared its ugly head in high school. Luckily I've found my love for words again, and I've started reading books on self-improvement.
I just finished reading "Living Dangerously" by Osho, and now I'm on to "A New Earth" by Eckhart Tolle as recommended by my good friend Jolene.
If you can't afford to buy a book, (because sh*ts is expensive), consider reading PDF versions online, listening to audiobooks, or browsing through articles on Twitter.
It doesn't matter how you consume your knowledge, just as long as you're consuming it.
I'm not one for sitting still; I get uncomfortable sitting upright for more than two minutes, and if I close my eyes for too long I fall asleep. I'm not talking om-ing and ah-ing until you reach enlightenment.
As soon as you wake up or before you go to bed, stare at the ceiling and let your mind wander. This allows for you to sink deeper into your centre.
If this still sounds unappealing, journal your thoughts. Writing your feelings down can help you to express yourself without judgement, and it's a great way to see how far you've come later on.
#3: BE NAKED
Sleeping naked was one of the best decisions I made, not only because it helps you to sleep better, but because it helped me appreciate my body. I've struggled with body image, as I'm sure most of us have, since I was 13 when I realised everyone had boobs except for me.
Growing up as a late bloomer took such a toll on my self-esteem that I started looking for love in all the wrong places, and it affected me up until around 17/18. Luckily since then, I've overcome my need to look a certain way and I genuinely embrace how I look.
I am happy to say that although I do still workout to shape my butt and tone my stomach, I don't care if I'm not what you're looking for. I'm what I'm looking for, and that's all that matters.
#4: MAKE A DIFFERENCE
A big part of my growth is being able to say I've made a difference, whether it be in one person or a million people. Creatively, I'm constantly trying to one-up myself, and connecting with an audience of women who share the same sentiments I do is so important to me.
Whilst discussing my plans for 2018 with my dad, contemplating whether or not I should go back to Cape Town or stay in Namibia, my father said "I don't want this to be enough for you. The world is too small for you. I want you to be hungry, and Namibia won't satisfy that hunger".
This really hit home, as I've found myself becoming comfortable in the space I'm in simply out of a lack of motivation, and slowly I'm trying to find that hunger again. That need to do better than I did the day before.
Last but not least, a quality I lost in a world teaching me to be hard when all I am is soft, is my ability to love. Love is so important, not only because it enables us to be compassionate and strive for greatness for us and for our community, but because from it grows much more than flowers in our hearts.
I thought being "bad" was the only way to be alluring and sexy, two traits I embody 24/7, but it isn't. I think ones ability to be mysterious and tasty is the love they exude.
I was such a dark person at the beginning of the year, without even realising it, and slowly I'm trying to change my hatred for the world into love. Changing this mindset has made the world of a difference, and I see people in a much different light.
Don't get me wrong, I'd still cut a b*tch if need be, but it wouldn't be my first option.
Wishing you all a successful new year, filled with an abundance of love and happiness. Onwards and upwards my friends!