At the beginning of 2018, much like the beginning of every year since I was 16, I made new year's resolutions. There's something about the first day of a brand new year that screams "I can do better", and so every year I try.

2018 was the first year, however, that I wrote my resolutions down for the world to see, so I decided to reflect on how I did with said resolutions.


I'm proud to say that I accomplished the first goal I set out to achieve! I began the year by finishing "Living Dangerously" by Osho, and proceeded to finish "A New Earth" by Eckhart Tolle and parts of "Women, Race & Class" by Angela Davis and "To Be Born A Nation: The Liberation Struggle For Namibia" by the SWAPO Department of Information and Publicity. Although I didn't finish as many books as I had hoped, I never stopped reading and retaining information, which was the ultimate goal in the end anyway.


This one is tricky. Yes, I did meditate, and even managed to practice a bit of yoga here and there, but my mind was far from centered. I started the first year of my degree, so I was just trying to survive half the time, never mind "centering" myself. Thankfully, as the year grew to a close and I went back home to visit my friends and family, I found myself again. I might not have meditated as much as I should've, but I made it out of the year in one piece.


I'm pretty sure I spent more time without clothes on than with clothes on, to be honest.

The point of this resolution was to get comfortable seeing myself naked and appreciating my body for what it was and not what it could have been due to a diet or intense form of exercise. I still struggle with body image, like I'm sure most women my age do, but I'm learning to love who I am by loving where I am.



Unfortunately much of 2018 was, as I said, focused on just trying to get out of bed in the morning, which made it difficult to take care of anyone else, but I tried my best. I donated old clothes to my local children's charity, gave away my leftovers instead of throwing them away and donated to a few organisations during Ramadan. Nevertheless, I could've done better and hope to do so in 2019.


I'm grateful that although I had the most reckless year relationship wise, I never stopped loving; I searched for it and gave it out like free condoms from Zer021. That being said, I should've protected my heart more than I did, and should've distinguished who deserved my love and who deserved my reservation, but I still came out with the best parts of myself, and for that I'm grateful.

All in all, if you look at my resolutions from last year I did pretty well, but don't be fooled. 2018 was hard, and by the looks of things on social media, they were hard for everyone. One of the greatest lessons I learned last year is to take everything at your own pace. You're only going to lose yourself trying to catch up with everyone else's success.

Wishing you all a prosperous new year, and be on the lookout for my 2019 resolutions, coming soon!

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